Musing - Crisis and Care

CONTENT WARNING: Frank discussion of mental illness, potentially distressing details.

I have periodic issues with depression and suicidal ideation. It took me a long time to accept I couldn't just easily take care of myself when in crisis, and even to accept what it is to be "in crisis".

If you or someone you know is in need of help, please consider consulting readily available online resources or seeking help.

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This track is a calm meditation on what crisis feels like for me, and on realizing that assistance is acceptable and possible, and that it is a natural and normal thing to experience mental illness and difficulties - we should de-stigmatize it. So, I'll start. Usually musings are on the Patreon and only on the Patreon, but this one is more personal and for any/everyone.

Sometimes it can feel funny, or a bit unreal, and sometimes it's dire. The definition of crisis includes that your usual coping mechanisms don't work as they should, so you shouldn't be upset with yourself when things don't work as they usually do.

Length: 
10~ Minutes
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Rewarded Puppy by Leanan Ivy

Part of my Puppy series of audios using terms of endearment and a powerful pleasure trigger. This set does not use any actual puppy play or puppy outfits as the anchor, just the term "good puppy" and "Alpha" as a term of respect for your dominant. These audios will link into future My Puppy tracks. Includes fractionation and progressive relaxation in the induction, and forceful pleasure anchoring in the Rewarded Puppy track.

Leanan has their own Patreon where they produce works like this.

Length: 
18:36, 33:01 with Induction.
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Callu - Fish N Fuck (Pussy Version)

A gorgeous otter girl who fishes from the dock near Lakeside Farm. She'll let you spend some time with her... she'll even let you spend some time enjoying one of her sex toys: an aphrodisiac infused goblin-made double-ended dildo you can both be impaled by at once.

Be milked into continuous climaxes alongside her as you try to keep quiet and not squirm too much.

This is based on a character from Corruption of Champions, by Fenoxo. Callu has a southern farmer's daughter vibe and there is going to be a series which extends the relationship beyond the in-game content.

I don't do accents well so I asked Leanan Ivy, who meets the necessary qualifications, to do Callu for this piece. I really enjoyed how it came out.

Leanan Ivy has their own independent patreon where they post their own work.

Length: 
26:45
Type: 

Callu - Fish N Fuck (Penis Version)

A gorgeous otter girl who fishes from the dock near Lakeside Farm. She'll let you spend some time with her... she'll even let you spend some time *inside* her. Provided you don't squirm too much, the muscled otter-morph girl will sit on top of you with your cock buried in her powerfully squeezing pussy, and she will work you to climax inside her while she enjoys the feel of your dick. Just don't move too much, or touch her too much - you can't scare off the fish and she's out here to relax. Of course, if you hold out long enough, she might end up pleasuring herself to the point of forgetting about what she was up to, and letting her voice out...

Climax as she rides atop you and uses her internal muscles to milk you.

This is based on a character from Corruption of Champions, by Fenoxo. Callu has a southern farmer's daughter vibe and there is going to be a series which extends the relationship beyond the in-game content.

I don't do accents well so I asked Leanan Ivy, who meets the necessary qualifications, to do Callu for this piece. I really enjoyed how it came out.

Leanan Ivy has their own independent patreon where they post their own work.

Length: 
23:25
Type: 

Well-worn Groove Induction

A short rapport-based induction which uses the theme of your long-established hypnotic trance skills becoming ever more automatic and providing routes along which consciousness may flow, with me. The more familiar you grow, the deeper you go, and more easily you prepare the fertile ground of your mind for all to follow. This is an induction, so consider putting it in playlists with other audio for deepening and to create your own experiences with their own flow.

Length: 
7 Minutes
Type: 

Silvered Reflections

Latest piece in the continuing story of a dominant AI construct. This time Silver is showing off your training and devices to the person who hacked the AI modules to enable a dominant helper AI in the first place. Your training is shown off, and deepened, and when Silver is praised for her fine work in training you, you feel the reflected pleasure of that praise.

Length: 
30 Minutes
Type: 

Silver Surrender - Gaining Purchase

Silver has decided to train you. The AI which dwells inside your cyberware has anchored several mundane sex toys you don't *quite* remember ordering, to a set of clear commands that help you submit more completely during play with her. If you actually have the props, they might add something to the experience: A ball gag with holes, purple wrist cuffs, and a bullet vibe.

The story of a cyberpunk AI embedded in your hardware, who is just trying to help in the ways you have asked her to, and to be as real a companion to you as she can be.

Length: 
30:30
Type: 

Silver Surrender - Installation and Introduction

A sentient helper AI is installed in your cyberdeck. She's here to help. You only remember her voice in the past, never hearing it in the present... an echo that has already set reality and now you are living it. She's armed with a suite of features which are normally beta, because of course you enabled the beta, that's where all the good stuff is. She helps you through your day by color-coding your schedule, adjusting it to be achievable with your current level of energy and attention. She even schedules things you've forgotten, scanning them from your mind...

And she's done a security review on all the many apps you've given unqualified permissions to over the years. She found one for helping you develop habits, by relaxing you and inducing a feeling of pleasant calm when you stay on schedule... she's even chosen a name and appearance, despite that usually being forbidden for AI. It turns out there is all sorts of useful advice in the forum she's been perusing... the hidden BDSM forum on the beta archives for her production line.

You're sure it's fine. And she seems to really be helping you.

Installs some post-hypnotic suggestions related to this series, works well with Brain Drain, the Night series, and Mentally Muzzled.

Length: 
30 Minutes
Type: 

Silver Surrender - Calibration and Compliance

Continuing on from the Silver Surrender series. This is the second audio, follow-up to Installation and Introduction.

You have a day off to spend any way you choose. You choose to do as your new AI assistant would like. Of course the question of who is the assistant and who is in charge is for you to settle together. She places you into a variety of modified simulations, resembling recreational programs you had used inside your visor's mental landscape previously. The changes she's made are of course authorized, and very much to your liking as her interests veer into fantasy realms with very slight dominant twists. Some conditioning and behavior modification is implied and explored as Silver cements her sense of self and lightly ablates yours.

Length: 
42 Minutes
Type: 

Purple Light Aura

The serpentine succubus, slithering in from the dark, provokes a refocusing effect on your vision. Everything you need is highlighted in purple light: the things you need to do, the things you crave to do, the things which refocus your training.

A submission-inducing meditation on the kind of slithering influence the right hissed word in the right place can have, and a highlighting of priorities you are free to follow up on. Haunting brainwashy theme along the line of "be careful what you wish for" if what you wish for is a submission which is part of you, not directed at any one person. The serpent in the story is an example, but she exemplifies that you're your own architect of surrender. Works with all the other purple light themed audios, as well as general Corruption pieces, Mental Muzzle, Brain Drain, Night Night, and my assortment of personal triggers. Has a faint "mental journey" theme amid the deepeners, and in places implications of prospecting in the ruins of what you once were.

Length: 
30:27
Type: 

Cum Witch - Size and Dominance Drain (Shrink Her)

The Cum Witch, breeding-oriented sorceress of the Sand Coven, has invented a new toy - a sleeve with suction cups at each end, for the two of you to both use at the same time

It suctions on to your body, licking and siphoning your energy, and wraps around her cock, which is long enough to extend all the way through and rub its dripping tip against you. As each of you fantasizes about the other, the device moves energy from one to the other... a struggle in which your genitals shrink or grow, and you become more submissive or dominant in the process - and the same happens to her.

In this version, you decide to give her a taste of her own medicine, winning her rigged contest and convincing her to worshipfully enjoy your newly enlarged length.

This audio makes no assumptions about the listener's genitals until after the transfer has occurred, at which point your cock and its control over the Witch is described in detail as you fuck, fill, and rut with her.

Another version, where you submit and become null, with no way of gaining pleasure except through pleasuring her, your crotch a genderless blank expanse she has siphoned away, will release really soon.

Length: 
37 Minutes
Type: 

Venus Pitcher - Easy Pickings

When scouting for fruit and herbs around the new settlement of Mhen'gha, the locals usually leave you alone. The exception is a gorgeous woman all too happy to be the subject of your attentions. Her breasts, her lips, her vines... her hunger for your arousal and your fluids. She stimulates you and invites you to return to her again in future, though she isn't releasing you until you're milked dry and you've had a taste of her as well.

Long plant girl fantasy, two versions one for pussy-havers and one for penis-havers, both incorporate instructions to climax and encouragement to return as well as some titnosis themes.

Voiced by Leanan Ivy whose independent Patreon is over here.

Length: 
40+ Minutes
Type: 

Getting To Know You / Inside And Out

A piece by Leanan Ivy. In the creator's own words:

Non-erotic and erotic versions of a simple type of hypnotic induction: the rapport induction. You are invited to identify with me, and informed about how *I* drop into trance, so I can give some examples and bring you closer. This uses the "submerge" phrasing I have used previously, and also the root and path metaphors I frequently draw on.

The erotic version, Inside And Out, is available to supporters at her Patreon along with her scripts, early access pieces, binaural and layered versions.
Leanan at Reddit
Leanan on Soundgasm

Length: 
25 Minutes
Type: 

The Mirror's Many Shapes

A transformation/body change file. The words "good boy" "good girl" and "good pet" are used, and links to penis/pussy/null presentations in a bit of body shape swap play, while the mirrored woman inside a cursed summoning room uses your body for her pleasure. Has an induction for setup and a general air of shape-shifting and being used while in various forms. Includes anal, penile, vaginal, and breast play referents for the listener, as well as general submission themes.

This was originally a custom commission.

An optional induction is attached which goes with the overall theme.

Length: 
32:55
Type: 

Hands Off 2022

A trigger "Hands off", to avoid touching yourself and get locked in the mindset of refraining from stimulation. A substitute for physical chastity belt. Works well if you have an orgasm denial or control domme who would use the phrase and other methods to train you.

Implies your own agency and the idea of entering enough of a trance for your muscles to be very relaxed. Your hands simply.... stop. If you try to pleasure yourself with something other than your hands for example by squeezing your thighs, your legs will relax, The simple suggestion of a useful anchor which leverages your desire to be a good submissive partner.

"Hands on" is a trigger not only to end the hands off state, but to induce compulsive relief and release of your pent up desires.

Similar themes to Mentally Muzzled. When you are triggered, my voice in your mind reassuring you and agreeing with your own that maybe you ought to refrain from touching yourself.

This chastity trigger can be used by you, or by dominant figures you trust. It may be used in future chastity files.

Simple and powerful, it focuses only on preventing or discouraging your own direct masturbation in a stern dominant way. Any other stimulation such as indirect or hands free orgasm might still be possible.

Length: 
30 Minutes
Type: 

Go To Your Place

What if there could be a place inside of you that you so loved, were so compelled to go, that you would sit there and just watch the pleasures visited on your body, before returning to them only when instructed.

"Go to your place" becomes a direct trigger to check out, but your body still acts as commanded, still does as it is told while you sit in a room inside your head, a place with a comfortable chair, a warm hearth, with all the things you need and a definite connection to me... but from which you merely watch what happens, hypnotically and otherwise, with your will put away.

Much of the language will be familiar to fans of Brain Drain and some familiarity with traffic light safeties as a concept will help. You will still be able to notify your hypno top of your status, of course. It's just sometimes nice to send someone to their Place to remind them it is there, safe, helpful, and inevitable. The idea of not going there is silly, since it is the nicest place to rest and be.

Corruptive/sinister elements throughout, but only in the name of safety and communication. ;)

Length: 10 Minutes

Length: 
10 Minutes
Type: 

Deeper and Dilute

Your thoughts are diluted across a vast ocean of inner space. There are lighthouses, radiating purple light. You crawl ashore, and forget... and back into the liquid of your thoughts you go. A dark, lurking, observing overseeing force is present, helping make sure you go where you belong.

Submission, mild corruption - that your thoughts will be more dilute during trance in future - and an element of ongoing surrender where your thoughts stay slow and methodical and easily interrupted while mine stay clear and calm and obeyed. This can be looped, or used as an induction and deepener before other audio.

Length: 20 Minutes

Type: 

Didn't Sign Up For This - Taking One For The Team

You are the squire to a knight who is bonded to her armor. Her skin is as tough as steel, she is resistant to all magic, and her very presence has a purifying effect. She can spar with one person without breaking a sweat, so she spars with ten and works up an appetite... for many things. When opening her mail you are struck with a curse clearly meant for her. The knight, rising from the bed where she had been taking care of her post-exercise 'urges', comes over to check on you.

Your worshipful mind makes you blurt out your desires, kissing along her musculature, and servicing her willing form... but she's still going to take you to the bath and wash the cursed energies out of you with her own. Climactic and loving encounter, set in my "I Didn't Sign Up For This" universe which will see some expansion later down the line.

Genital and gender neutral. Muscular woman partner, wisecracking, gremlin.

This was created as the result of a custom request at my patreon.

Length: 
33:52
Type: 

Cabin Kitty - Captain's Privilege

You are the horny ship's cat responsible for most simple duties of ship's protection, for reporting spies and intruders... and for satisfying the senior officers.

The wild magic used to propel the Tempest's Wail causes arousal, bodily mutation, and the entry into the world of various strange and fantastic creatures. When the senior officers (Captain, Bosun, Second Mate, First Mate) need assistance with their arousal, or have guests... you are there to provide pleasure. Of course, you provide coy, superior pleasure and hold out as long as you can, but you're head over heels for all of them - yes, even the catty Second Mate - and your service is a point of pride.

The Captain is a demigod, self-possessed, alluring. She wears a special outfit to lock in the beguiling beauty and immaculate shape of her body - as well as its corruptive and pervasive magic. When she strips it off, which she only does in the warded confines of the cabin, she more often than not needs relief. Her fluids are seductive, delicious, addictive, you want her... and you're quite resistant to her magic over the long term, so it's safe for you to let her indulge. Another is also resistant- one of the cabin people is actually not interested in the captain at all... but in you.

Nerija is indeterminate about their gender and would like some help getting off via your warm sandpaper tongue on their chest. They are incredibly sensitive, and a welcome addition to your play, once the Captain has softened you up and asked nicely. (Nerija will return in an upcoming Pirates piece, so keep an eye out for them as well!)

The captain has a cock and a pussy and desires service upon both. She is dominant, gentle, affectionate, and treats everyone like a long-lost friend.

Benefits from the Cabin Kitty- Getting Into Character piece being in mind.

This was created as the result of a custom request at my patreon.

Length: 
30:35
Type: 

Subby Puppy - Underfoot Training Time

You, as a submissive puppy, serve and whimper under my thrall and influence. I rest my feet on you, and slowly train you. All foot fetish exposure brings out puppy mindsets and awakens your urge to be handled, positioned, and allowed to just be a good puppy.

Incorporates the Underfoot Training Time Induction

This was created as the result of a custom request at my patreon.

Length: 
21:10
Type: 

Brain Break - Absolute Saturation

A rapidfire verbiage overwhelm audio which expands on the "Brain Break" concept.

I provide you with enough words and thoughts for your mind to concern itself only with self care, with thinking those thoughts that have been waiting for you to un-clench and address them. This is a time you can loop, and a track which more powerfully provides a chance to zoom your brain out, each time you visit. In the suspended time, which is about taking care of yourself as you would want to be taken care of, you are allowed to drift without thoughts you normally consider 'mandatory', and pause your mind enough to focus on yourself.

Works with Brain Drain and Night Night series concepts as well. Uses the same start as Brain Break - Loop and Pause, but is much longer.

Available as a Reward audio.

Length: 
31:59
Type: 

Brain Break 2 - Loop

Drawing on triggers from Night Night and Brain Drain, this file follows in the footsteps of the original Brain Break.

10 minutes of rapidfire triggers and conditioning aimed at providing alternative focus so you can be truly blank, maybe even lose track of time or forget the period of time entirely. Great for resting a tired body. Loopable so you can put it on repeat and keep going through, perhaps forgetting the cycle, until you need to do something else.

Length: 
10 Minutes
Type: 

Brain Break - Loop and Pause

A simple loop about your thoughts getting slower and more relaxed so you can have a breather. It can be looped, or put on a playlist multiple times. You can just put it on repeat, and drift.

Uses the Brain Drain concepts, various beginner concepts, and interacts well with Night Night.

There is another loop in this series, Brain Break 2.

Length: 
10:24
Type: 

Getting Into Character - Cabin Kitty

A non-gender-specific non-genital-specific series of files starring the Pirate crew of the Tempest's Wail.

You take on the role of a feline-morph crew member on the ship.

Sometimes the large crew of the ship need sensual relief, whether cuddling or some more involved erotic comfort. Sometimes intruders sneak onboard, magically or while the ship is at port. Sometimes the ship just needs some good luck. You take care of that and are well-compensated.

Files involving this character will tend to feature encounters with the powerful officers of the ship or useful pet-play themed service to powerful figures on the ship. Detailed fantasy with mind control themes, this piece sets the stage and the personality of your character well.

This was created as the result of a custom request at my patreon.

Length: 
10:01
Type: 

Chaste Chill

Great for those cool months. There is an ambiguity in how we feel heat and cold. Heat can be perceived as chill, and we see cold as numb, and heat as arousal. Accordingly, the more turned on one gets, the more numb and impossible to arouse they become. This is an insidious little chastity themed file which might change the way you see arousal, and make orgasm quite difficult if not impossible. The chill could even be uncomfortable until you cease stimulation or turn your attention elsewhere.

Length: 
20:41
Type: 

Dragon's Round 1 - A Round On The Dragon

Arriving at the Sapphire Star, an inn run by a cute couple you're fond of, you head inside and offer the single remaining gold coin from your most recent heist as collateral for a room for several nights... and one round of drinks for the house "on the dragon".

For you did indeed steal that coin from a dragon's hoard. To be fair, she was sleeping. Or seemed to be...

Unbeknownst to you, she has followed you with designs on finding her way into your bed, and bringing you home to her lair. Of course, she'll have to get in line behind the powerful warrior woman who wants to spar with you, with sexual favors on the line.

You're happy to accept, your legendary agility and skill with a blade should enable you to end it quickly enough to avoid being controlled by the pheromone-laden Amazon warrior *too* early in the encounter...

It's not that you never want to fall, you'd just like to put on a good show before she takes you to her bed, rubs you down, and puts you to work on her gorgeous body.

The attached "Getting Into Character" audio is a good setup for our protagonist's mindset.

A bratty sapphic love story in numerous parts, starring you as the noble thief in the crosshairs of a bunch of domme vixens on one of the few vacations you've taken in your career.

This was created as the result of a custom request at my patreon.

Length: 
37:55
Type: 

Subby Puppy - Underfoot Training Time Induction and Deepener

An expansion of simple puppy principles: giving me pleasure is good. Staying in place, rolling over, knowing your place, being belly up, being a good puppy, and giving in to pleasure... also good and important.

This is a useful induction for any puppy themed audio and is non-explicit, gender and genital neutral.

Length: 
11 Minutes
Type: 

Serpent Succubus - Induction and Deepener

A serpent mills around you in the dark, watching, guiding you down. The further into trance you go, the more every serpentine attribute of the succubus waiting in the dark is associated with your ever-growing trance.

Flashing slit-pupiled eyes, slithering scales, coils that hold you, all bring you deeper as they whisper and hiss from the dark.

Length: 
11:15
Type: 

They Come From The Walls (Normal Length and Extended)

You are a devotee of a corruptive force which reaches its tendrils down from a higher dimension, twining them through your mind and body with equal ease. A four-dimensional cross section interacting with something much simpler - no wonder they have such an easy time changing you, influencing you... until they go, leaving no evidence, and you want them back again.

Length: 
25 Minutes
Type: 

Deep Drive (Habit Re-Use Deepener)

There is a part of you which always runs you deeper into trance, ticking in the background. This is an example of a deepener I will be using in coming full-length hypnotic sessions, and it includes triggers and concepts I like! The idea of re-using the same concepts and audios opening you up to more hypnotic trance is core to this experience, which also encourages good habit formation.

This audio was originally made a few months ago by Leanan Ivy, whose independent Patreon can be found here for scripts, exclusive audios, layered versions, and first access to her new releases.

Length: 
7 Minutes
Type: 

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